The Desolate

"Sometimes we have to give up wonderful things just to make every thing alright..We have to bleed alone for somebody to smile.. We need those tears flow just to save the tears of others.. We have to break our own heart to feel somebody else's emptiness, and there are times when we have to give up our own happiness just to rescue someone else's burden.. That's what you call love.. It was never fair and will never be.."

Realization...

Today I came to the  Realization..

It was a big one and a difficult one to realize and admit for someone like me...

I realized something that has been lingering for quiet some time now ...

You could say I have known all along,

And when i look back at the past i would need to agree..

It is just that i wasn't ready to face it...

Don't get me wrong I didn't shove it away on purpose,

I think that is the self preservation I had build up.

Therefore I have been breaking it down lately.

And i happy I did

Because now i realize that i need you,

cant live my life without you,

Wont even live my life without you if i could,

Because i wouldn't want to.

I need you by my side.

Close to me.

To hear your voice night and day.

And when I cant have you with me night and day i will cry,

For having to miss you another day.

Therefore I hope in my heart that you know...

I realize I love you.

And I hope that you realize that i don't see a live without you anymore...

I belong to you and if your not around there is simply nothing left in my life,

Then the only thing that ever made me happy and made me smile would be ripped away,

So realize I love you and belong to you as long as my heart will beat,

As long as I breath air,

I will be forever yours,

Because when you would leave there simply wont be anything left....

Love is everything....

There was a time when I didn't believe love existed..

And that if it was out there it would never be meant for me.

That is why I always thought that I would not go and try to find love,

Because if I would find it,

it would only hurt me,

or atleast so I thought...

But then there was you,

At first a bit anger young gal,

But when I got to know you with the purest heart...

When you smile at me I melt away,

But that is not everything you challenge me,

You understand me,

and you say you love me ....

The last one I can just hope for it to be true,

Because for the rest I know for sure,

You are special really one of a kind,

I sometimes even think I found one of the last good guys,

So sometimes I look back uppon the time,

that I did believe in love but not for me in this life time,

But then there was you and you changed everything,

Me loving you changed me,

My life got rearranged,

You are everything to me,

So know that I love you,

And I can just hope you really love me too...